Tales of Truth

Dear blog readers,

For the past weeks, I've been contemplating about continuing writing in this blog for sometime, especially with the current news about the LGBT community, but each time I want to, I'm always afraid to write about myself because of the fact of being pursued or being found out. I'm currently in the armed service and with the DADT policy still in affect-well you get the point. But I'm tired of being silent and sealing it all in. I don't want to lose my fucking insanity. I want to write about what I go thru living under this DADT policy as a young officer and what I have experienced and experience daily to add my perspective in order to fight against this policy and to promote equality and justice for all, including sexual minorities. So if I died tomorrow, at least the world will know thru you, dear reader, that I spoke out, that I served my country honorably as best as I could, even under the circumstances of this policy, and that my voice was heard or recorded for all to take in, reflect, and learn from.

I highly value my privacy and before I share anything further, I must write this disclaimer for my legal sake. I am not in any way speaking for or representing the US Department of Defense or its military branches such as the US Coast Guard, Navy, Army, Marines, or Air Force while writing this blog. I am writing this blog as myself, an individual out of uniform, and just as a fellow US citizen who happens to currently serve. I am not publicly out, and I desire to keep it that way. I am also not publicly coming out onto this blog obviously. Though this is a public domain, I do desire to remain anonymous in not revealing my personal info or identity, so please dear reader, do not ask who I personally am (hence Don't Ask, Don't Tell) or pursue me in any way. This is definitely not a protest blog and I'm not gonna be sharing any confidential stuff that would jeopardize me or my country. This blog is just like any typical blog that a service member would write in order stay connected to their family, friends, or community outside their current area stationed or deployed at, but just my own writing outlet. You can comment to me about anything you want, I welcome your comments and discussions-positive or negative (at least no FLAMING negative comments please), but all I ask is that you respect my privacy as well respect other readers.

Now that this is out of the way. I want to start out this conversation with the latest news on a gay man that was hazed (see below):



Now, if you deployed me tomorrow in Afghanistan and I was attacked by terrorists, hell ya, I'd be shitting bricks, but I'd also be shooting with my rifle back and defending my unit and fellow members as best that I could. But the thing that I fear the most are not terrorist attacking me in the dark of the night, but my own fellow service members that would not think twice about hazing me or even shooting me in the back of the head because I was a homosexual or perceived to be. My abuse or death would be considered a hate crime. And it would be ironic for my abusers because of the fact that they were motivated by hate and wanted to make an example of me in order to coerce, oppressive, or terrorize the sexual minority community, that they themselves become the terrorists they fight against and swore to fight for the equality of all U.S. citizens. This story reminds me that there are some people who are psycho-paths that would kill or attack any person that just even disagrees with their idea of heterosexuality and not be "gay." I am clearly reminded that even when the DADT policy is lifted, there's still the potential that my life could be threatened and that I could be a victim of such a hate crime, even in uniform and publicly open. I feel that there will even be some, such as myself, that will continue to be private about themselves or afraid to reveal their sexuality because of they don't want to be harassed or threatened their life for. But with the DADT lifted, it'll be one less thing I have to worry about out, which at least I'll know that I wasn't kicked out of military before being murdered victim of a hate crime. But I nevertheless place my confidence that when this DADT is lifted, our military will ensure the protection for all so that this never happens again like Rocha experienced. Rocha truly had the strength to endure this shit for 2 years deployed!!! I pray that never happens to anyone in uniform at all, especially from fellow serviced members.