Thursday, July 22, 2010

Steven Daigle




I remember watching a documentary calling the Butch Factor and there was a short interview with a gay rodeo cowboy named Steven Daigle. This man was on a wild bull and flew off it and just hung onto the gated fence for dear life. And it was hot watching him and I thought I was actually seeing a real-life rodeo competition. I saw a cowboy. And it was only after the fact he said he was on Big Brother. I was clueless before. Moments can define a man's character. All I needed was to watch that moment with him and bull to see him as a fighter in the ring with the beast alone, willing to take it. I thought I wouldn't see him again on film. I wish there was more of him on that film in the gay rodeo part especially. Well, I then realized that I did see him before on my tlagay.com booklet catalog. He was on the front cover of it! Man, this really peaked my interest in him and made me want to do research on him.

He's currently in gay porn. He really has an awesome body. But what's interesting about him is his non-conformity as a gay man. He doesn't fit in that stereo-type. He's been a rodeo cowboy, gone onto TV on a reality show on CBS, and now doing porn. Pretty non-confirming path by anyone's standards, let alone being gay. That's just his public life. And that's awesome. His private life is even more raw, tragic, and telling of his character. He's been thru so much that it's amazing that he keeps a straight face in front of the camera. Check out this interview he did for Lucas Entertainment. Though he my hide his emotions on his face, its in his eyes that we can really tell the pain he's been thru by the death of his boyfriend to being rejected by his own family after telling them of his death. It's also in his eyes that we glean the strength in him. He still fights that beast in the ring as do all gay men trying to find their place in a world that unjustly rejects us. And though he's gotten beaten emotionally speaking, he still gets up and fights, and fights, and fights. He fights to live, to live his life, and to define it his way. And that's beautiful and amazing to observe that. His strength stuns me to imagine that I too can have that strength as he. He's another example of the human spirit, to endure and live on, to rise above the rest, even possibly above himself. Keep being who you are Steven, don't confirm.

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